When my dream fly to the world

I used to have a pair of very strong and beautiful wing. It is able to bring me to every where. It gives me hope and dream. I used to be very happy and lived in fantasy world. My world was full of flowers and colours. I wished to go to every part of the world and collect peoples' story. I believe everyone have their own story. It is the memory when they are still alive and being a human. My dream was flying around.

But now, because of my greedy, my wing is hurt. I have been captured by my greediness. I cannot fly again. I can only stay in the same place doing nothing. Feeling life is meaningless.

Now, I am trying hard to make myself recover from my illness. At least I am still alive and there is so many things I can to do. Please do not give up. Appreciate every moment being a human. While this body still can function, I want to leave as much memory as I can to this world. There are still many parts of the world I have never been before. I want to know more about my world. So to fulfill my dream, I will never ever give up until my dream fly to the world, until I know the reason why I am here, my existence.

努力

今天，又到了上小提琴课的日子。老实说，我真的没什么练习到，被老师说教，真得很不甘心。其实，这也不能怪她，练了这么多年的小提琴，没什么进步到，要是我与这样的学生，我也会教的不爽。我老是提醒自己，一定要坚持每天练习，背好每一首曲子。但是，每天放工，就累得懒惰练习。我真的有很深的愧疚感， 我时常在怀疑我究竟是否喜欢小提琴，为何我还坚持学下去，如果不练习就只是浪费时间跟金钱而已。

想来我学了很多东西，就是没有一样精通。可以想到的都是老师们无奈的脸庞。天下没有不劳而获的事情，就算是天才也需要不断地练习，跟何况是我如此平凡的人。芭蕾舞是如此，小提琴是如此，语言也是如此。工作也要提起劲来。这样才会有一番作为，再向前走之前，还是应该反省反省，不要一昧的冲。

才华与梦想

最近又想起了小时候的梦想。感觉我人生中，每一个阶段的梦想都不一样。念小学的时候， 就很喜欢写故事，尤其是童话故事。总是有好多好多奇奇怪怪的想法冒出来，灵感犹如泉水般源源不绝。写过了很多故事，如今已忘了写过什么了。其后，又迷上了漫画。

以前的我，颇像野孩子，老是爱到处流浪，或者该说爱冒险，所以晒得像木炭一样黑。可是因为这样我的人生体验才这么的丰富。十岁那年，我已经是一只小书虫了，喜欢逛书店买书。从家里走了二十分钟才到达。有一天，我在书架上看到一本书，封面很美，喜欢画画的我，自然不会放过，把他买了下来。后来我才知道那是漫画，美少女战士。然后我又开始画漫画了。

曾经想过，长大之后要成为画家，漫画家，那时候，受爸爸的影响，喜欢中国文学，也爱作诗。那时候的自己，才华横溢，自信满棚，现在的我就很羡慕那时候的我，不知道挫折为何物。随着年纪的增长，那些梦想渐渐被遗忘。每一次听见“红蜻蜓”这首歌，都觉得有无限的感慨.

到了中学三年级，开始觉得江郎才尽了。我想大概是我迷上了芭蕾舞吧。不再提笔写作。
想不透，为什么我的才华渐渐消失了。最近，读到了一个美国作家的受访文章，说到写作，只要读，读，读，读多了，就会有很多新点子跑出来，写作也得心应手多了。对他来说，没有所谓的天才。想想也时，天才如果没有努力，也无法出人头地。就算是莫扎特也要勤于练习，才能拥有这么多巨作。上天其实也是公平的，一个人不能太贪心，梦想太多，最后也是一事无成。

长大了，变得越来越现实。以前最受不了铜臭味，现在却不得不向现实低头。芭蕾舞是一个昂贵的梦想，也是最难实现的梦想。然而，我却为芭蕾舞执著到了现在。到现在还不想放弃，对于芭蕾的欲望越来越强。

可笑的事，拥有这么多梦想的我，现在却是一名需要理性思考的工程师。上个星期，连追了好几部电视剧。有意不让我体会到，即使生命只有一瞬间，曾绽放过就不会有遗憾。从以前就在想，希望可以创作出感动世人的作品。对我来说，只有艺术才能令人感动。比如莫扎特， 英年早逝，但是却为后人赞叹，若我能如此，心已足矣。生命不在乎长短，只在乎是否有意义。就应为如此，我在工作中常常感到迷惘。艺术的路是那么的坎坷，我是否能承受呢，我要的是什么，这也是我必须考虑的一个问题。因为，青春短暂，我已不能再浪费生命了。

有一个名人也说过，人生最冒险的事就是你从来不冒险。我自以为我老是爱选最难走的路来走。其实不是的，我并没有自己想得那样勇于冒险。我选择的是，可以让我的生活安逸的路。

目前还在为生活奋斗中。。。。。该何去何从呢？

随意

1。 好久都没有以华文来写文章了。自上大学以来，用的都是马来文和英文，后来又热衷于外语，如西班牙文和日文，都快忘了小时候学华文的感动了。以前最爱中国文学，爱古诗，热衷于写作。故事总是很自然的从指尖流露出来。可谓是左右逢源，而今却灵感不再，连中文该怎么写都快忘了。真是不该啊。

2。 最近，因为假期，追了两部动画，恶作剧之吻和梦色蛋糕师。好向往他们的生活，然后发现动画的主角们，之所以可以成功，都是靠恒心跟毅力，而这些正是我所缺少的。我缺少了成功最重要的元素，总是埋怨生活太过单调无聊，其实只要改变想法，就会发现身边有很多机会，世界也会更开阔。思想改变了，生活自然而然的也会跟着改变。让单调的生活奏起充满色彩的交响诗章吧！不要让将来的自己后悔过去。不要再把自己关在狭小的牢笼里，展开翅膀飞向世界各地吧！

3。 看着这些动画，旧时的梦想又开始蠢蠢欲动了。音乐，舞蹈，艺术，故事， 想透过这些将感动带给大家。我认为不能再为自己的梦想找借口了，时间不留任。我不能太贪心，追求太多，会迷失方向，努力使自己成为更加完美的人吧。浪费了二十多年的时间了，不能再浪费下去了。加油吧，一定要成为最耀眼的主角。

manage your technology

Recently I am taking a course called management of technology. I realized that as an engineer, we also have to know the skill of business.We can be an inventor and also entrepreneur.We have to know how to protect our right when come out with new invention. I was surprised that Thomas Edison that came out with so many invention ,still can success as a businessman. I thought he is just a normal scientist that only know how invent things. The most clever things he did was he patented his invention to protect his invention. He was so amazing that he had 1093 name under US patent.He was also one of the best inventor that good in using the power of marketing and advertising.That is why, he become a role model for our course.

First of all, we should know what is technology and industry.Our main focus on this course is innovation.I have found that many electronic company are using this word in their company website. Innovation is create one invention that is useful and nobody have created it yet. America have the most innovation,why? I think is because of the education system, environment and they are more open minded. They are very fast in accept changes. Asia country is more conservative, sometimes it is quite difficult to accept new changes.However they are changing bit by bit now.

We also learn which way is the best way to advertise our product.Compare to internet,nowaday advertisement in television is still more efficient. There are less distraction and a group of people can sit and watch together and discuss about that product. While the personal computer is only use by one person at a time.

We still have to know how to differentiate patent,trade names, trade marks, brand name and product. We have discuss about various product such as coca cola, chip, thermos.Many products lost their trademark protection such as nylon is no longer a brand. Do you notice that some product have registration symbol (R).

We learned about various type of strategic and innovation management, life cycle of technology and analyse different type of business model.Also learn about how to compete in the market and many high technology as an example such as robotic surgery. We also studied about global company's profile.

Of course,we cannot run from presentation for this course. I found that I still cannot organize my information and my thought systematically. This is not my first time to present but my weakness still no improvement yet. I easily lost control and cannot focus on the main topic and misinterpret other people's question.The way to be the top technical presentor is still very way.

Almost every courses in this training centre have to do presentation. I suppose to be get used of it but sometimes still feel panic.A lot of things have to be improved.I can only say to myself:never give up,keep trying:D

Facial treatment

Today is 30 August 2009, a day before merdeka. My cousin and her family went back to Kedah and left her maid to stay with me. Yesterday I have made an appointment for facial treatment.The center is located at bandar Sunway, which is around 30 minutes from the place I am staying. It is just opposite the Sunway Pyramid. This is my first time to do facial treatment, feel a little bit panic and lazy.When I went there, the beatician ask me to take off my bra and my shirt then I cover my body with sarong. I just laid down let her do her work.The environment is quite nice and relaxing.This treatment is last for 3 hours. She help me clean my face with deep cleansing facial foam,then put on a mask.She also use machine to steam my face so and then help put on a mask that remove blackhead and dirt of my face. After that, pressed out my blackhead manually.After that clean again and put on essence then she did face massage and eye massage. After all these process, she put on a cooling mask and cover my face with a cold towel. Lastly, she massage my shoulder and head. The treatment is ok, but I dont like people to hit my head, next time have to remind her. My nose become smooth but very red...The small hole on my face still exist,haih...not that fast to see the effect, may be have to do several times more. That indicate I still have to spend my money. However this is a new experince to me, I think I won't go there again so soon, may be after one and half months....

Love

Love can be many kind.The love of parent and children, friendship's love, love between teacher and student,etc. But most of the peoples ,they feel that love between lover is far more important than other things. Love can make people miserable, peoples are so stubborn until they can sacrifice for love. Love is blind and I believe with this. That makes them cannot think properly whether it is worth or not.
That is why I scare of love or being love.When you are really in love, when you lost it, you will be very miserable. We as a human, there are many things that we cannot control, our life is short, we cannot always be together with the one we love. And we cannot guess what our love one's thought, what if they betray us? It sound awful but we cannot neglect this possibility. I do not mean to insult love. What I want to say is love can be important but it is not the most important in this world, there are many other things that need our attention.


     刚看完新白蛇传， 不自觉的哭了。哎呀爱呀！执著于爱， 会使人失去理智。我的看后感言是， 执著的力量太可怕了。 因为执著让你看不清四周， 让你不顾一切去伤害别人。它会让你和你四周的人陷入痛苦。

    法海虽然因为要替百姓除害， 但是也因为执著于人妖殊途， 执意拆散许仙和素素， 而招来巨大的灾难。爱情的确是盲目的，会动摇到相爱的人之间的感情， 都会令他们捉狂而不折手段的铲除一切防碍他们的东西。

    我并不反对人与妖的恋情，反而还超爱这类型的故事。 这种不在乎对方是什么的爱， 才是最美，最纯洁的爱。在现今的社会， 真爱已难寻。如果发海不三番两次的拆散他们， 或许他们的幸福会持续下去， 没有东西会遭到破坏。从另一方面而言， 没有考验，就看不出他们爱情的坚贞。

     至于白蛇， 她因为爱情而救人，因为爱情而害人。不听劝告， 执意救出许仙， 真是最终害人害己啊！世上又多了一对痴男怨女啊！许仙呢！存在感很薄弱， 不过真佩服他。在知道他的娘子是蛇之后，还爱她。：）

    青蛇不想像白蛇那样去爱也是好事。无忧无虑的生活最好！

总而言之， 爱也好，不爱也好， 不要太过执著。